I’ve had variations of this post drafted since September, but as you can imagine, it’s not very easy to admit that I came very close to deleting my blog. I considering not posting this, but I want to be honest. Open about how hard blogging can be sometimes, and how discouraging. I’ve thought for months about how to express my thoughts, what to say, and I’m still don’t know how to do it. But after seeing Parajunkee’s post wondering if the book blogging community has gone on hiatus, I thought I’d finally post.
Why I Almost Quit Blogging:
A couple of months ago, I was in a bad place mentally. I had/still have a lot of stress in my life, from a variety of things, and blogging felt like too much work. More importantly, I felt like my blog was pointless. I’m not one of the big, popular book blogs, and I never will be. And yeah, sometimes I get a little jealous when I see the ARCs, connections, comments, and content those more popular blogs have. It’s human nature.
Blogging is also lot of work. Here are some of the steps I do for each review:
- Read book. The time for this varies, obviously. On my phone (which I use for most ebooks), I have read 380 hours this year, with an average of 479 words per minute. I don’t have any estimate for physical books sadly.
- Write review. This takes a couple of hours. I write an average of 1,000 words for each review, and edit/revise a couple of times.
- Proofread review.
- Format post, which includes finding links, images, etc.
- Check post.
- Schedule post. I try to keep from posting 5 reviews of the same genre in the same week, or 5 low rated reviews, etc.
- Schedule tweets and Facebook links.
If blogging felt pointless, why on earth should I bother with all of that? Why not just read a book and move on?
Why I Didn’t Quit Blogging:
Even though I wasn’t posting to my blog, looking at other blogs, or hanging out on Twitter, I was still reading. Reading is something that I will never stop doing. I’m not exaggerating when I say that if I couldn’t live without books in my life.
And even though I wasn’t posting them, I was also still writing reviews. I tend to write down my thoughts for most books, and every time I thought about stopping, I couldn’t. I’d find myself making notes, jotting down page numbers for quotes.
I also thought about the connections I’d already made, with other bloggers, authors, and publishers. I didn’t want to lose them.
Lastly, even though I wondered if it was pointless for me to blog, I realized that I would miss this outlet if I deleted it. I decided that even if no one else reads my reviews, that’s mostly okay.
February 2014 will mark two years of Leeanna.me. I’ve put almost two years of hard work, time, and effort into this site. In the end, I knew I would be disappointed with myself for taking the easy way out.
So here I am, back for another two years, and more after that.
If You’re Thinking of Quitting:
Really think about it. Even if I had quit, it wasn’t a decision I would have made lightly. I spent almost two months deciding whether to quit or not. Don’t let a nasty comment, a rejection, or something else make you click on that DELETE button without really thinking about it. Try a hiatus first